Where do we seek HAPPINESS???

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Since this morning I have been thinking what should I write in my next blog. And finally tonite while I was preparing dinner, the food was cooking over the flame and some thoughts were cooking in my mind. Half of my mind was occupied as what to write and half , thinking whther my dish would turn out to be nice or not... :)

Ultimately the dish turned out to be a perfect one... and my family were enjoying every bite of it.

It was a perfect moment and the smile on my face was to be seen. I was happy.

And BOOM... this is what i have been thinking upon... HAPPINESS...

When I used to be a student, my desire was to get perfect scores in all subjects. The ratio of my input to output was equal. The more I used to study the more I used to get and vice versa. Till I joined college, my desire was to score good marks. During the placement time, my desire was to get through a good organization. Afterall it was my career!!! I still remember those olden days, we friends used to prepare and go for the tests together. I, mostly, used to stay irritated and upset at home. It was really a hard time untill I got through the placement. That was a moment to remember. I was so happy and full of joy, holding the offer letter, that I can not even express right now. I started imagining things about how to spend my earning, shopping till i drop, freaking out and watching movies, going to excellent restaurants every now and then, ahh a lot more... a pretty long list.

I started earning, and spending as I had thought.. everything was going smooth till I realized that I was actually fed up of the same routine. Every morning had to rush to office, sometimes after a quick breakfast and often skipping it, same kind of work, have something edible for lunch, come home with the groceries and veggies, prepare something (edible again and which would get prepared quickly), talk over phone with family members and far away friends and closed ones, sleep. Every working day was almost similar. Over the weekends, it was again kind of similar routine, waking up late, having a brunch, washing clothes, hang out with friends which included either shopping or a movie, going to a sea beach sometimes and dining together.

My grey cells were almost defunct, I was feeling like a machine. There was something which was missing. I was not happy with the way my life was going ahead. I wanted more and more. I was becoming greedy. It kept me bugging as why was I not happy as I got what I wanted. Proffessionally, it was all ok, personal life was doing good. Every alternate weekend I used to visit home and meet my family, still there was something fishy. I was not happy, or say satisfied with my life.

It kept my grey cells bothering for a while and then ZZZZZZOOOOMMMM... there it was... the thing called 'DESIRE'.

Till the time every pre-desires of mine was fulfilled, I was happy achieving them but as soon as it all accomplished, my list of desires kept increasing, I actually forgot that I had many other small but important things to do and achieve.

I started doing my small activities like poetry writing, writing articles for my company magazine, music ( universal hobby), learning new recepies. I started enjoying all these. These were all small things but I was really happy.

I was always scared of driving cars, and finally when I learnt driving I thought I had achieved a great thing. When I drove down from a shopping mall to my place, about 4km long distance, I was so elated that I reached home safely, driving from a crowded road, without a single scratch on my car.

There was another incident, where I rode snow scooter, all alone, on highest pass of Dhauladhar Range (Rohtang Pass), surrounded with snow all over. It was such a thrilling experience of life, that has motivated me to ride a water scooter too. Let me share a fact that I do not know how to drive a scooter or a motorbike. I discovered an adventurous Rupayany. Wow... I never knew that I would love adventure so much. It was scary though but that moment, that adrenaline rush, all that excitement gave a backseat to my fear. It was a moment of exuberance.

I used to hate getting drenched in rain, but today I went and got totally drenched, I must admitt that its a lovely feeling. Small children were enjoying too, shouting and playing. Its all so much fun. I was actually happy, singing songs.

These small things give so much happiness in life that we generally tend to ignore. There have been many such moments with me and i hope, even with all my readers. I have felt it and realized it. I am sure even you would experience them too.

Happiness surrounds us always, we just need to explore it.

Are hobbies a pastime???

I have been thinking on something for quite a long time...

Are hobbies a pastime or something to enhance your talent and know yourself better???

When i was a school going girl, I used to think hobbies are something which help us in passing time, irrespective of how effectively or qualitatively we do it. I some how had an affinity towards music and nailpolishes. I was not allowed to play with nail polishes often but music topped the list. I started off with typical bollywood : filmy, music but ended up listening to almost all kind.

I learnt the art of enjoying the music irrespective of the language, i started listening to various language music.. ofcourse indian languages. I eventually thought learning a language would help me understand the music moreand better. I felt that i had an affinity to learn new language too. Though I can not speak all fluently, but I learnt so much that I could undertsand the basic things.

I even learnt that I was fascinated by the musical instruments, and eventually learnt playing keyboard. I love listening to tabla, drums, guitar, mouth-organ, violin and saxophone. I observed a thing in music.. use of saxophone makes a romantic song sound more romantic.

Lately I have developed an art of humming and composing songs, sometimes with lyrics, and sometime just the music...

Now, coming back to my passion for nailpolishes.. I loved painting my nails with different colours. That ultimately led me to play with colors and paint.. whether on a nail, a piece of paper, cloth etc.

I had a knack for creating small.. tiny winy arts on nails.. which lately, is known as nail art.. I have been so perfect in doing those, that even my cousins and friends have enjoyed this on their nails, created by me. My paintings in school won prizes.

Thus, one thing called hobby, led to other things... call it a hobby or a budding talent.